That relationship with nature grew partly out of another change in my life. I came of age in the 1980s and early '90s, influenced by punk and alternative culture and by the philosophical and spiritual questions of my Unitarian upbringing. In college, I began meditating and exploring Buddhist philosophy. It offered a way to step outside the constant flow of ideas and to experience the world in a more direct way.
Nature is present and alive in a way that isn't about words. It just is.
The more time I spent paying attention to the living world, the more I felt fed by it. Real sunlight glowing through leaves does something to me that anything illuminated on a computer screen can't. Over time, making art from nature has become a core part of my relationship with it. Sunlight inspires a feeling of grace, which might inspire a series of paintings—and making those paintings teaches me to see the sunlight differently.
When I paint a bird, plant, person, or landscape, I'm not simply trying to reproduce its appearance. I'm looking for the particular beauty or presence I find there. I edit the image, removing distractions, exaggerating what seems important, and using color, line, shape, and composition to distill the experience. I'm trying to create a kind of visual poetry that might help another person notice something they otherwise would have passed by.
Years ago, I stood in front of a Van Gogh painting in a museum and had the immediate sensation that I wasn't simply looking at a road he had painted—I was looking down that road through his eyes. The psychological intensity of the way he saw the world was suddenly an experience I was having. Someone who had been dead for generations felt intensely present in me. For a moment, I felt vividly connected to another person's experience of being alive.
Experiences like this have changed what I believe an artwork can do. An image made with passion and attention can carry something of one person's encounter with the world into another person's life.
That's also why I still care about making physical things. Making art fosters a relationship with my own heart. There is something intimate about nurturing an artwork into life. When I live with the many pieces I've made, I feel little hits of the original inspiration from the days I made them. It's like a journal of experiences with nature.
Oddly enough, I sometimes feel something similar when I put on one of my shirts. I'd like my work to remind someone to open their heart to the nature around them.